A Brave Goodbye – To New Adventures

Dear lovely, supportive, and loyal Red Heroes,

I am nearly in tears whilst saying this, but it must be done. I have had a foreboding feeling for awhile now, one that I have been able to suppress, but I can no longer push it down. Red Hero Inspiration has been such an ambitious, integrated part of my life for the past 3 and a half years, which is what makes it so hard to do this, but I must.

I am officially retiring The Red Hero Inspiration. I feel that I have lost the original direction for this blog, as I have grown from the girl I was when I started this to the young woman I am now. I am nearly an entirely different person. I have shed new skin, and, unfortunately, I was not lucky enough to have been able to mold Red Hero along with my growth.

This, however, does not mean that it is the end. I will continue to upkeep A Whimsical Ghost, as I am never far from writing a poem. Nor does it assume that I will never again start a blog. It only means that, in this time of my life, I am not at a current place where I feel a blog is wanted as a part of my life. Red Hero Inspiration was an outlet for me that was not granted to me at that time of my life, but, luckily, I have found an outlet that is permanent.

This also does not mean that my It list will be set aside on a shelf, but quite the contrary. As of right now, my It list is evolving and shedding a new skin, too. As I had started Red Hero Inspiration with my It list, I feel it is only right to end it with such.

THE IT LIST

Acquiring an SLR
Acquiring a Polaroid
Finishing ‘The Notebook Theme’
Writing a novel
Seeing Paris in the Spring
Acquiring an old-fashion typewriter
Watching all of Judy Garland’s films
Singing in front of a group
Not speaking one word for a whole day
Learning Spanish, Italian, and French
Riding a Moped
Riding a horse with no saddle
Reading Kon Tiki
Creating my own personal library
Filling out a journal
Reading the Bible cover to cover
Reading Pilgrim’s Progress
Capturing love in a photograph
Getting a job
Moving out
Spending a day at the Hawthorne District
Spending a day at the Saturday Market
Tattooing my side with meaning
Riding the bus
Finishing a jawbreaker
Reading 20 books written about Jacqueline Kennedy
Reading “She Said Yes”
Watching the greatest movies filmed in 1939 and reading each film’s book
Watching all Alfred Hitchcock movies
Doing a 365 project
Acquiring a DSLR
Finishing “A Collection of Thoughts”
Seeing the Bodies exhibit
Taking care of a Bonsai tree
Publishing my Poetry as a book
Meeting a Person for Each Birthday of a Year
Opening my Own Gallery of my Best Work in Photography
Taking Art Classes to learn the technical side of Painting and Drawing
Reading at least one book of all the author’s on the big painting in Barnes and Noble cafes
Creating a Heart shape with Polaroid photography I take
Reading all of Shakespeare & watching one movie for each
Spending a day at Ikea with my love
Watching all of Jane Seymour and Charlton Heston‘s movies
Seeing both of the homes I grew up in years from now
Having Kevin teach me how to use chopsticks
Completing the Marilyn Monroe mosaic puzzle
Filling a jar full of origami stars for each wish or prayer
Learning each of my heritage’s language
Attending a Midnight premiere
Being at Time Square, New York on New Year’s Eve
Being at the Beach when it Snows
Reading every book on the BBC 100 book list
Not adding 1 item until 7 are crossed off
Having a Pen Pal from a different country
Listing at least 3 things I am thankful for each day for a year
Visiting Claude Monet’s house
Throwing a message in a bottle to the sea
Playing tictactoe in the sand on the beach
Throwing a dart at a map of the world and going where it lands
Riding an elephant
Visiting South and North Carolina
Finding the old truck in the article my grandmother gave to me and taking a photo of it
Participating in Relay for Life
Eating breakfast at Tiffany’s in New York
Reading (at least) 1 book in a different language
Visiting my great grandmother and great grandfather’s graves
Creating a 50-line poem with a photo associated to each line
Creating a daisy chain
Sending a post script to Postsecret
Writing a poem in another language
Being a part of the Holi Festival
Reading 20 books about Ghandi
Reading all of the books on the wall at 5th and Hall

I am going to miss this blog dearly. I have learned so much through reflection by looking through these old posts, and it truly is amazing to see the difference something seemingly unimportant can make in someone’s life.

To new adventures. I love you all.

Sincerely and most heartbreakingly,

Red

The Red Hero Breathes New Life

Hello lovelies,

I am pleased to announce the rebirth of Red Hero. Though this blog still focuses mainly around my It List, I feel like it needs something else to help it steadily live on. I’ve pondered what I could do to help this blog (I’ve even thought of simply retiring it . . .) but before we meet our bitter end, I want to try one last thing.

Mondays;;  will focus primarily on traveling. Whether it be an adventure of my own or a dream I choose to share, this day will host a photo and possibly writing regarding traveling.

Wednesdays;; will be a day to share inspiration. This could be a video, a poem, a photo, art, or anything else I come to find (or you share with me) that inspires me and I wish to share with you.

Thursdays;; I will be writing a little something, or sharing a tidbit from whatever writing project I’m working on. Mostly it will just be more of my poetry.

Fridays;; on occasion, will focus on music. This will not be an every Friday habit. This will mainly be if I happen upon finding a song that is so hauntingly beautiful that it moves me to absolutely have to share it with you beautiful people.

I am going to try desperately to keep up with this. If this doesn’t work to inspire me to keep Red Hero running, I may have to take a hiatus. I suppose what my heart seems to be struggling with is two things: Time management, and losing sight of the purpose of this blog. I no longer see the purpose of posting day after day, probably because I’m hardly on the computer any longer. I will cry if I have to lay Red Hero to rest; it has been such a huge part of my life for so long, as have all of you.

What do all of you do when you’re feeling like this? Have you ever felt this way?

Red

Losing Steam

I think after this word project, I am never going to do another 365 project again. They drain me of any inspiration I have, and seem to overtake my Red Hero.

I also want to get back into devoting myself to this blog. I feel like I’ve lost steam for keeping it up and, quite frankly, I’ve become lazy with it (I blame the words.)

This next term of school will make everything so much easier to develop a schedule for this blog. I’m looking to makeover the blog, too, in the next week. Be prepared for some changes.

I love you all, and I haven’t forgotten a bit about you.

❤ Red

P.S. I need a dictionary.

super hero

super hero (Photo credit: demandaj)

What a Dreadful Thing

Dearest Readers,

I’m so sorry to say this, but I feel no inspiration right now for this blog. 

This horrific feeling has haunted me for the past few months. I don’t know what to post anymore. I think the fact that my time is filled to the point where I feel like I have no free time whatsoever. If I’m not working, I’m at school. If I’m not at school, I’m on the bus. If I’m not on the bus, I’m sleeping. On top of that, I’m trying to nurture a lifelong relationship with the love of my life. There seems to be no time for Red Hero anymore.

With this conclusion, I do believe I’m going to have to take an official hiatus. I’m not sure how long this will go on for; I will do my best to be back by New Years, but it all depends on when the inspiration is instilled in me once again.

With Love and Regret,

R

Love (Live) Life – Post Six-Hundred-Seventy-Three

Personification of Autumn (Currier & Ives lith...

Personification of Autumn (Currier & Ives lithograph, 1871) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This has been a crazy year. I’ve lived life more vibrantly than I ever have before. I’ve had experiences I can never relive, but always cherish. I also still enjoy grocery shopping, if that’s not weird at all. I’ve learned so much through my mistakes and by observing others, and I’ve realized just how much grace God has given me, even with my selfish endeavors. I’ve discovered more of who I am, who I can be, and who I’m willing to fight not to be. I’ve been shown what needs to change, and I’m going to do it through Jesus’ support and love.

I think, due to all the beauty that’s surrounded me for the past year, I’d like to accomplish some goals by next year.

  • Do something I’ve never done (at least) once a month and write about it
  • Accomplish 5 more It items
  • Travel by train
  • Write half of Letters to Aveline
  • Work harder
  • Love more
  • Be more involved
  • Take an art class
  • Fill a sketchbook at least half way
  • Practice yoga on a regular basis
  • Become more active (body-wise)
  • Further my relationship with Jesus

I think that’s a brave enough list, wouldn’t you say?

Au revoir,

Gigi

P.S. Expect an It item starting tomorrow.

Continue to Grow and Evolve (Post Dix) – Post Six-Hundred-Seventy

I truly can’t believe I’m done with this small series already. It’s already been 10 days. How crazy is that? Tomorrow is the 3rd year anniversary of Red Hero. Through this blog, and through God, I’ve grown tremendously, and there is no sign of me stopping any time soon. Well, maybe with my height, but that was a lost cause years ago.

I think the most beautiful thing about living is we never cease learning. We never cease to lose an opportunity to grow, no matter how many times we make a mistake. We are given second chances consistently. We are always being challenged, urged, and pushed to make the best of this opportunity. We don’t always accept that, but when we do, I believe it’s the most gratifying feeling we have been granted to feel.

Never cease to take advantage of the opportunities granted you. Each chance you lose is one less chance you have before it’s it. Time is not something to waste or take advantage of; it is something precious beyond measure. Your chances will appear less; they will cease to come the moment you take your last breath.

Never, ever take advantage of this moment and say, “It will come again.” You never know if it will or not.

Au revoir,

Gigi

Be Congruent, Be Authentic, Be Your True Self (Post Neuf) – Post Six-Hundred-Sixty-Nine

Dr. Seuss

Dr. Seuss (Photo credit: andymangold)

I’m probably the worst person to comment on this, simply because I haven’t had this problem ever since I was 13. Yeah, I’ve been lost as to who I am, but I’ve always been true to myself no matter what others have thought of me.

So maybe I can teach you something new.

When it comes to other people, I respect their opinions, but I also don’t let it change who I am unless God says. I respect myself enough to let me be as I am. I never change who I am for other people unless its what God says I should do. Watching others as I grew up change themselves and completely lose themselves in another human being scared me. I did not want to be someone who lost who they were through another person. It strengthened me to say enough is enough and to stand my ground.

I am stubborn. I am shy. I am outgoing and a bit of a loudmouth. I’m funny. I am extremely intelligent, I just need more time to think things through before I comment. I have moments of extreme quick-wit. I am a writer at heart. I’m loving, kind, selfish, confident, and at times insecure about my own decisions. I second-guess myself all the time. I have flaws, and I have virtues. I have many things to work on in my heart that God is slowly but surely weeding out, but this is part of my true self.

When I was about 12, there were these new people going to my church. I was so worried about what they thought about me that it was stressing me out. My wise Mum said to me, “You shouldn’t worry about the opinion of people who don’t matter. It’s those who matter that count.” From that moment on, I didn’t care what others thought about me. I didn’t care about what they thought of my appearance, my loudness, my outgoing personality. Most people found me adorable. Others did not like me and treated me accordingly. I did not let it put me down though.

Do not get me wrong: I still respect other people for who they are and if they are offended or I’m being rude, I quickly knock myself down a few notches to respect them. I don’t change who I am; I just tone it down for their sake.

My dear readers: You do not have to change yourself for anyone. The only One whose opinion of your heart, actions, etc. is Jesus. He is the only One that matters when it comes to yourself. Think like Dr. Seuss . . .

Au revoir,

Gigi

See the Good in People and Help Them (Post Huit) – Post Six-Hundred-Sixty-Eight

This is another challenging, yet rewarding one to work on. It is so easy to assume the worst of people and justify our actions. It happens every day. We see them make a mistake, or we judge them based on their appearance or actions, and we treat them differently. In other instances, we don’t offer a helping hand simply to protect ourselves. We are afraid to lend out a hand. Sometimes we even think we deserve a reward for our ‘good deed’ and that guides our choices of when and when not to help.

Why is that? Why have we trained ourselves to think helping is a dangerous thing? Since when do we deserve anything for our efforts to help others? Helping is not about gaining anything for ourselves; it’s about helping others.

There was this time; not too long ago. This family that I count as my own and I’ve helped out numerous times – even bent over backwards for. One time an accident happened and one of their children broke something of mine. We asked if they would consider replacing it,  and they flat out said it wasn’t their responsibility. Long story short, I was angry. Not only was I angry, but I was hurt. I’d done a lot for them, even sacrificing things for myself in order to help them out at times, and they couldn’t spend $10 to help me replace something? I was upset for awhile. I was even considering telling them I’m not doing this for you anymore. And then I thought about it.

How selfish was I being? Yes, out of common courtesy it would have been nice for them to offer to pay for it, but I should not have expected them to, and the sad thing is that I did. For  awhile I saw nothing but negativity, until I forgave and let go. I’m deciding to see the good in them instead of holding their mistakes or flaws over their heads and help them anyway – not because I’m the better person or anything, but simply because I feel horrid for removing a helping hand because of something like this. I feel petty for it. I don’t like feeling that way.

No matter what anyone does or doesn’t do, you should put that aside and always help. It doesn’t matter what other people say; it doesn’t matter if it seems like people are taking advantage of you. Simply do it for yourself. Help others if only to feel better, because honestly: I feel happier when I help others and expect nothing in return, and don’t worry about whether or not they are taking advantage of me. If they are, they are. If not, then they aren’t. It’s not for me to judge. My job – everyone’s job – is just to simply help no matter who the person is. It’s as simple as that.

English: "A Helping Hand". 1881 pain...

English: “A Helping Hand”. 1881 painting by Emile Renouf Français : “Un coup de main”, Emile Renouf, 1881 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Au revoir,

Gigi

PERSIST (Post Sept) – Post Six-Hundred-Sixty-Seven

Persist. Persist. Persist.

Keep moving forward. Haven’t you heard the saying, “The squeaky wheel gets oiled”? I have. A hundred times. Thanks to my mum and my grandma. Every time I’d apply for a job that I really wanted, they would both say this.

So, if we can persist with our job opportunities, we can persist with our dreams. It saddens me to hear stories of how you dreamed to become this or that, and you gave up. Persistence is key. The author of “The Help” is a great example. She was turned down countless times. She was told move on to the next one over and over again. Yet she didn’t. Now her novel is a best-seller and a major motion picture.

Now, if we can persist for dreams, then why can’t we persist when it comes to other areas of our lives? Why not persist to change ourselves? We have so many flaws, and there are many of us who complain about them. We are not always blind to our iniquities. Instead of using words and then having to apologize again because there was no action behind the words, can’t we persist change? Pursue it. Hunt it down until you catch hold of it.

Persist: [per-sist, -zist]

1. to continue steadfastly or firmly in some state, purpose,course of action, or the like, especially in spite of opposition,remonstrance, etc.
2. to last or endure tenaciously
3. to be insistent in a statement, request, question, etc.

In spite of our habitual nature; in spite of our countless flaws, we should obstinately fight our second nature in order to become who we want to be. We should stubbornly persist to change ourselves in ways that will only help us grow.

We should not allow excuses to take hold of our lives.

From now on, I’m taking a stand against myself.

I will change through God what He sees fit to be changed.

I will persistently pursue these efforts on a daily basis.

And, through my persistence, through my obstinance and tenacious efforts, I will succeed.

How? Because I gave it all to Him.

Au revoir,

Gigi

For My 21st – Post Six-Hundred-Sixty-Six

I’ve always wanted to do a masquerade. I decided that since this is my last big milestone I’m going to go all out and do something special.

Just thought I’d share that with you. ❤

Au revoir,

Gigi